so exciting!

Today my dear friend Lindie is coming for a visit and I am quite excited!!! And this evening we will go to my brother's work Christmas party-how pleasant (don't know why I just said pleasant, but fair enough). On Tuesday we are going to see the musical Beauty and the Beast!! So many fun things! I like it when people come to visit. Always makes things out of the ordinary and fun!

life rating

My life is rated G.
What is your life rated?

risks

God has been teaching me a lot practically in my life about stuff I knew before, but have never really had to apply to my life in such a drastic way! Obedience to Him requires risks. There might be unknowns, there might be what if's, but He's God! And so I can have faith and trust Him completely, because He's got the master plan and knows exactly what's going on. He's shown me that He want sme to move to Quebec next summer which is a risky move for lots of reasons. But He is trustworthy and He's been showing me that more and more with a few details and reminders this week that have been absolutely amazing!! Totally washing away any doubts I had before. He is a good God and I can trust Him with my life, because He knows what He's doing!

NOW!

Sorry for the lack of updates. I feel as though life has been chugging along and i haven't been able to stop much to think about it. But I think life needs to be pondered otherwise we simply stay in a state of going-never changing, or turning, no speeding up or slowing down-just going.

My life is full right now. I leave the house at five in the morning and return at ten in the evening. I keep thinking of everything that's going to come and what I'm going to do and what God's going to do through me. Yet I keep looking towards the future, consequently neither enjoying the present or the future, because when what I was looking forward to finally comes I'm too busy looking ahead at what's coming next to enjoy what's here now. But God has purposes for my life TODAY! Right now!! And I can live life to the fullest in every moment. And it's going to start today, right here, right now!

prayer room

I really want to go deeper with God. And to be a woman of prayer. Today I put together a prayer room. A little sanctuary tucked away where I can go and meet with God. I've started writing verses and prayers on the walls and I have some other creative things in there and I'm really excited! If I try and spend time with God while in my room, I just get distracted. Not that I can't meet God wherever I am, but I'm excited to just have a place where I can go deep and intimate with my Daddy.

selfish

My eyes have been opened more and more to see how incredibly selfish I am. Everything revolves around me, me, me. Everyone needs to know about me and care about me. But that's not what it's about. This is where my focus is and that's why everything seems so crummy! My focus needs to be on God and on others. And loving them no matter what. I keep worrying about getting hurt. And so I can't even have proper relationships with others, because I'm not honest. I'm a fake person. I need to crack open and risk being vulnerable and weak.

under a cloud

I've been under a cloud lately and have come to realize just how safe and protected I've created my world to be. It's not a good world in the sense that most of it is fake. I've even begun to fool myself. Amazing how we can think one way so much that even though it's not real we begin to think it's the truth. Now I'm just writing sections of a really big thought and this probably won't make sense. More to come later.