dogs

Lately I keep hearing my dog bark outside my window. And it's nice, because I enjoy my dog and the comfort his bark brings to me. Then I remember that I dont' have a dog. Oh well.

Lately my focus has been way off and everything has been off kilter as a result. I need to get it back on the Lord and all else will fall into place!

focus change

My focus has been off this past few days and I see it influencing all areas of my life. I need to get that focus back and walk in the victory and life of Christ!

roadkill

This morning I was driving to work at 4am and saw some roadkill right in the middle of my lane. Looked like a giant possum or something large. Anyway, as I was driving home from work eight hours later a little after noon, I noticed the roadkill had taken a little trip and was now cradling the middle lane in the middle of the road about a meter away from where it was before. I pity the car that helped it move there.

enjoying days off

This past weekend I had my first day off in 35 days! Yay!! I have a family of four visiting from Germany right now, so we went to Cultus Lake, Bridal Veil Falls, Othello Tunnels, Harrisson Hot Springs and then to the States for some good Mexican food for dinner! It was a long day, but good and wonderful to be outside enjoying God's creation!

Today was back to work but it was good. But now that I am home I see that one of my fish, Yoko is struggling. I found his head sucked to the filter... and now he's limply floating around the tank and staying in some spots for long periods of time. It makes me really sad. I like to keep telling myself that he is simply sleeping for a long time and likes floating around while he sleeps.. i'll keep telling myself that.

tomorrow there's going to be a big dance revolution with a bunch of people from work-should be fun! i'm pretty excited! and if you want to see some pictures from my day trip, go check out my pictures blog and let me know what you think. i was having fun being out with my camera once again!

amazing love

happy Good Friday all! I was reminded in huge ways again today of God's immense love for us. And how we're reminded of that on today, the day set apart as the one where Jesus died for us. So we could have a relationship with God. Wow. He knew we would reject Him, He knew we would forget about Him, not pay attention to Him, worship other idols in our lives, have other priorities other than Him, go to other things to satisfy rather than Him, yet HE DIED FOR US. Because He loved us. He saw all our faults and everything we ever did against Him and took those things upon Himself.

The reason I was reminded of this mainly was because lately I've been getting frustrated with a situation at work and holding grudges and getting angry, gossiping, and slandering. not cool. but i think i have a right to it, because I've been wronged! Poor me! Life is so miserable. Not so. How dare I hold a grudge against someone else and withold love from them in view of everything Christ has done for me. Yes, I still need to deal with the things coming up, but in LOVE! Christ's love, not my own. Mine doesn't go so far. Hard to do, but God is love and if I'm truly letting Him reign in my life, that love should reign and flow out every moment of my day. I need to surrender the frustrations to Him and let His love overflow.

tired

I'm tired!! Worked at 4:15 this morning and got up even earlier and thought i'd squeeze in a nap, but it just didn't happen. I've been thinking a lot lately. Not totally sure about what, but simply thinking. God is so good and His blessings never end. I was thankful for the rain today and the beauty it has within itself. we often gripe because it's wet, etc, but think about rain and the beauty of what it is and even how it refreshes! wonderful-makes me want to dance in the rain!

anyway, short blurb from my tired half-functioning brain. played a game tonight where you have to blow a ping pong ball away from you on the table and my cheeks hurt from blowing.

Dance Dance Revolution

Tonight a few friends from work came over for dance dance revolution and it was great! So much fun! My calves are really sore though! Things have been really good of late and I've really been enjoying living life to the fullest where I'm at. Things for the future are a bit blurry, but I know I have to keep trusting in the Lord! And putting my own feelings and emotions aside!

If you want to see some more amazing pics of ddr, go check out my pics blog (link on sidebar)

cruisin'

The other day Liz and I went cruising around for over four hours and it was great! We drove to Cultus where we sat and skipped rocks for a while. Then we went on to Hope where we went to Othello tunnels. Then back to abby through harisson and mission. it was a beautiful day and being in a convertible and seeing the mountains in the wide open spaces was great! You could see it so much closer it seemed. it was beautiful and so relaxing! Yay for mountains in BC!

another day

today work was once againf rustrating for reasons why it shouldn't be, but then it got better as I ignored the other things.. frustrating though to be sure! for a second right now i thought it was like midnight and i asked myself why i wasn't in bed.. then i realized it's not even ten yet.. but i do have to work at 4:15 am tomorrow morning.. lucky me!

and tonight liz honeyford arrived!! and she'll be staying a little over a week. mainly visiting her daughter, but i'm excited to see her and spend time with her as well!

i came on here with something specific that i wanted to write about, but i forgot.. so i shoul dgo get ready for bed and i'll talk to you later! God bless!

signs of life

Today all throughout my day I kept seeing signs of life and it was so great to be able to continually praise God for His life all around me! this morning at the grocery store, an elderly lady walked up to me and started telling me how she was having trouble finding a card for her husband for the 64th anniversary! so we started talking about how they probably dont' have that many cards for that, and when she got married everyone thought their marriage would only last six months, but little did they know! Anyway, I was so blessed by this lady, in a way that i couldn't even understand, but it just filled me with joy to interact with her!

then i was parked in the safeway parking lot eating my dinner (in between things) and the truck parked in front of me had a younger boy in it.. he was sitting there i think randomly singing really loud (i could just tell by his facial expressions..) then he suddenly noticed i was in front of him, so he took off his seat belt and hid... then a little while later i kept seeing this little hand shoot up and wave a little. it was so funny! but once again a source of joy and a sign of wonderful life! and this amazing life that Christ has given us to live and enjoy! Oh and also in the same parking lot an older women with all her groceries had to double check her license plate to ensure she had the right car!! it was great! :)

had my first night at divorce care for kids tonight and it was so good. i was a bit apprehensive at first, but God is faithful, especially through my weaknesses! Next week will be a bit more different now that I have a thought of how things run, but my heart is already stolen by these precious children. and I know God will continue to do amazing things and I'm excited to get to know these kids better and pour into their lives!

God is great and full of life and I'm excited to be filled with that life day after day! Thank you Jesus!

farewell wanda

So for the last three days, wanda, my beloved bubbly/cartoon eyed fish has been simply sitting at the bottom of the tank, barely moving. she seemed so miserable, but i waited with hope taht she would perk up. this morning as i saw her stuck to the filter suction, i realized that maybe she wasn't going to perk up.. so i scooped her out of the tank and took her to the pet store where they're keeping her by herself to watch her. so she is not dead, but she is no longer a member of the fish community in my room (the smelly fish community i might add!)

To replace Wanda, we have a new goldfish. However, it is a bit of a different breed than Wanda was, because it has bubble eyes. I am still trying to get used to them because i miss seeing wanda. The first picture is one of the goldfish i've said goodbye to and the second one is a picture of the newest addition to the thank. and once again, i need a name for this fish! since dan named wanda, i am going to give him the dubious honor (if he even reads my blog) of naming this new fish. so we can all await this new name!

so that is my sad news of the day, coupled with some happy news about a new fish.

filling up fast!

Well, as of tonight, I officially have four jobs! Whee!! I am working at Starbucks, picking up shifts at apollo, cleaning and now tutoring! all are quite different and add a lot of variety, so that's kind of cool. Yesterday I was tempted to get overwhelmed with a bunch of stuff that I have to do, when I realized that I simply need to take a step back and just focus on the Lord and rest in Him. He can take care of it all and He's big enough-I just need to continually maintain an eternal perspective.

I finished reading a book called 'feminine appeal' and it was great. it's geared for mothers and wives, but it's for single people as well and i was very challenged and encouraged by it. i'd like to share one of the quotes from it that really challenged me.

Carolyn Mahaney quotes from one of her husband, CJ's books:
"When I become bitter or unforgiving toward others, I'm assuming that the sins of others are more serious than my sins against God. The cross transforms my perspective. Through the cross I realize that no sin commited against me will ever be as serious as the innumerable sins I've commited against God. When we understand how much God has forgiven us, it's not difficult to forgive others."

This was a great reminder for me, especially as Easter is coming up. But just to continually remember what Christ did for me and view all my relationships and interactions through that.